The closure of a chapter (Part 1)

We're not the same, dear, as we used to be.
The seasons have changed and so have we.
There was little we could say, and even less we could do
To stop the ice from getting thinner under me and you.

It was a relationship we have to end. There’s nothing else we could do but once we did, I felt nothing but hollow. It hurts like hell. No one possibly knows how difficult it could be. No one will ever know the pain that we had to go through. “Everything will be ok, I promised you.” Those were the words I used to say to her. We did try to resist but there’s come a point where we could not lie to ourselves anymore. There is simply no light at the end of the tunnel. There is simply no other option. The choice had been made and we acknowledged our own free will to leave. The residual bitterness still lingers but we have to move on for the best of us. It all started with a call and it all ended with a call.

Maybe I should let it rest but I do dream about simpler times. This chapter would not be forgotten and soon both of us would be laughing about it over coffee. Three months of ice melted away. Yes, it was a short memory yet there is nothing but sweetness. When we were together it was rarely painful. In fact we were very happy. At times I wish we could relive the memories. At times I wish it never ends. But as at now it remains as a wish.

I was attracted to all the rights and wrongs that make up the person that was her. She knew all the ways to drive me crazy, she’s just simply irresistible. I’ll always remember the strength that she gave me. I’ll always remember the love that she gave me. I remembered the first time I hold her hand. The rest of the night was a blur until after I sent her back home safe and sound, and I found myself back in my own bed. I could not sleep a wink... well, not with that silly grin hanging off my face.

We bury our love in the wintery grave
A lump in the snow was all that remained.
But we stayed by its side as the days turned to weeks
And the ice kept getting thinner with every word that we'd speak.

And when spring arrived
We were taken by surprise when the floes under our feet bled into the sea
And nothing was left for you and me.

The feelings are mutual and no one is to be blame. Moving on from each other was one of the toughest things we have to go through. She had moved on now. And I have to. We are bound to live through all the events of our life. We may not like it, but we have to anyway. This pain will be over one day. Thanks to human nature, the tears will stop and the pain becomes milder and milder, milder and milder.

No one knows what installed for us in the future. Perhaps we were not meant for each other; perhaps we were not destined to be together. There are certain things that might remain the same. There are certain things that might change and it won’t be the same ever again. I could only hope for the best and for once I’m leaving it to fate.

We're not the same, dear,
And it seems to me
There's nowhere we can go
With nothing underneath.
And it saddens me to say
But we both know, well, it's true
That the ice was getting thinner
Under me and you.
The ice was getting thinner
Under me and you.

I think that sometimes love is the ability to let the person go. I said it to myself, “Thank you so much for having been in my life. Now, I have to let you go.” Then I may give my love as a gift, shine on others, bless those who are leaving me and let them go.

Valentine day is around the corner, I can’t help but thinking of her for a moment. Three months of ice melted away. Three months is all I had with her.